I've been overweight my entire life. And my entire life my weight has been the only problem between my Mother and I. Weight is a big deal this day and age. The media says all women should be a size 2 with the perfect everything ; skin, hair, facial features, boobs, etc. Now me? I'm the complete opposite. If your happy with who you are that's wonderful! Who cares if your a size 2 or size 22!? Who cares if your an A cup or a C cup!? Unfortunately my Mother doesn't see it that way. I'm 20 years old, i weigh 290 lbs, A size 26 pants, and a 4x shirt. I'm a happy go lucky person when I'm not being put down every two seconds! I've been doing Weight Watchers since the last Wednesday of December 2009. Up until now I've lost 1 lb. I lost 5 lbs but i gained 4 back. Honestly I feel this is because I'm doing this for everyone else. Not for me. Would I like to loose weight? Well DUH! But right now I'm not doing it for me. I'm doing it for my Mother.
Tonight I was talking with my Mother and I flat out asked her, "You don't have faith in my do you?" She looked at me and shook her head "no". I wanted to scream, "THEN WHY THE FUCK AN I GOING THROUGH THIS HELL FOR YOU!?!?!? " I'm happy with who I am and my girlfriend is happy with who i am!!! My girlfriend, she always seems to be there when I need to talk or vent! And she likes chubby, jiggly, size 26 pants me!!! She likes BBWs! Why should i risk getting down to 125 like everyone thinks i should and risk my girlfriend thinking I'm not as attractive thin as i am big!?
Tonight I was talking with my Mother and I flat out asked her, "You don't have faith in my do you?" She looked at me and shook her head "no". I wanted to scream, "THEN WHY THE FUCK AN I GOING THROUGH THIS HELL FOR YOU!?!?!? " I'm happy with who I am and my girlfriend is happy with who i am!!! My girlfriend, she always seems to be there when I need to talk or vent! And she likes chubby, jiggly, size 26 pants me!!! She likes BBWs! Why should i risk getting down to 125 like everyone thinks i should and risk my girlfriend thinking I'm not as attractive thin as i am big!?
